At this stage in my life I am focusing more on my career, deciding what I really want for myself and trying to be all that God created me to be. The balance in striving for success in those areas is hard to manage.
Then I have the other side of life that is a relationship, potentially having children one day but my reality is I don't know what that life looks like. Will I have to give up everything I have created in order to be married?
I get asked so much about when I will walk down the aisle that I forget it is so much more than that. Marriage is not just the walk to say "YES" because it doesn't stop there. I look at all the current issues I see around me and I wonder if I can do it. I wonder why folks are in a rush for me to deal with another situation that is out of my control. How do you define a good wife if in your life you have not seen many.
I really wish I could wrap my head around this whole thing but in the meanwhile I pray that the questions and concerns go to the person that will ask the question. No one can make a proposal happen and to rush into a marriage is not the way I want to go either.
For now let's all be happy with being here today.
