Sunday, April 28, 2013

Back to ME!!!!!!

I know it has been awhile and I can't apologize enough.  I have been in the world wind of life.  Not saying that no one else has been but this time around it was different.  I didn't just step away from some of the things that I am passionate about but all of it.  I took a break from me. At first I thought something was medically wrong with me.  I started the year with limited energy plus the lack of drive that I normally have.  I finally decided to see the doctor because it had to be much more than depression.  It was way more than I could imagine.  God surprised me with a bundle.  The bundle of joy that is now growing inside of me.  I am still beyond amazed.  

Then a very dear friend passed.  That hit me hard.  We had planned to be together when I finally did get pregnant to do all kind of fun mommy stuff together.  Plus no matter what she had my back. She was there when I needed a good cry, shout or laugh.  I still miss her very much but I find comfort in our talks.  Yes I talk to my friend even now.  I don't always get a response but it makes me feel good to just have a chat with her about the world I am now in.

The most out of body experience of the year thus far is getting married to my best friend.  I mean people talk about it and once I knew a baby was on the way I was really desiring to make sure I was a Mrs. for many different reasons.  Getting to the alter was an adventure and until I walked down the aisle to him it was all a dream.  Even as I look down at my hand I am like wait I's Married Now!  Silly Me!  I wouldn't have it any other way.  I have already asked if I am a good wife.  His response is: I am the best wife.  Who wouldn't love that. 

So with my majors I just cut me out.  Not on purpose but I had to figure somethings out and get out of some storms so I could even write this post.  I feel better.  I feel good.  I am ready to take on my passions again because someone somewhere wants to have fun, start their business or just network with wonderful individuals.  That is what I feel I bring to the world.  If I am not doing it I don't really see it being done.  

Here I am.  I am back.  At 4:14 am I am up and making the plan of attack to get back to me so that not only am I proud but my new family is also apart of the fun.  

Look out!!!!!!